A Lot.

Can change in 24 hours

2011

M e l b o u r n e ? ? 

Like a Switch.

"we are all riddled with the limiting power of insecurity"

this book will change your life. i only started reading it today and my life has been changed for Jesus.

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So i have decided to fill all this spear time i have on my hands with something else instead of thinking and that is seeking Jesus. so I'm just chilling in my room walking around praying and i noticed this book. 'Isolating Insecurity' by Paul de Jong out the corner of my eye, it was as if God was pointing it out to me. The one and only Jayden Stuart gave it to me as a gift almost a year ago. I chucked it straight on the book shelf cause i was thinking "pffft ha, I'm not insecure" and "people cant see me with this book they will think I'm insecure"...now that i think about it, that just shows how insecure i was, being insecure about being insecure ha ha. so as soon as i noticed the book i picked it off the shelve and began reading it, immediately i realised how insecure i really am and how much it has been holding me back from living to my full potential. as i was reading, it reveled to me the answers to what i was praying about and showed me how i have been living throughout high school until today. it was totally a God thing that i saw the book.

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one thing it reveled to me is how chronic i am at compering my self to others, i do it all the time, causing me to give up on opportunities that come my way because i think that there are other people that are better than me. classic example lately is one of my best mates likes the same girl as me, he hangs out with her for one day and sends flowers to her for her birthday. so I'm like oh snap iv got nothing on this guy and pretty much give up and stop talking to the girl cause i think i don't have a shot. i was just letting insecurity rule my decisions.

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It's like a switch has flicked inside me this afternoon when i was reading, iv just all of a sudden stopped compering my self to others and fearing that people are always negatively judging my actions. I'm loving life so much more now and am just gonna be ME from now on in every area of my life. God has given me the dream of being Prime Minister and changing New Zealand for him because I'm ME and not someone else.

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Read this book. it will change your life for Jesus. no jokes.

In other news>>> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpxZwbPcA38

Over Thinking.

So i have been off Uni for a Month now and have found my self with hours upon hours of free time with absolutely nothing to do, so i think... alot! i have discovered that thinking is bad, thinking just leads to over thinking, and over thinking leads to worry, uncertainty, indecisiveness and i just get stressed.
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 i think  I know that its time to start living spontaneously. when i look back over the past about 4ish years all the best moments and decisions i have made have been spontaneous. asking Jesus into my heart was not a thought out decision but a spear of the moment one were i took the opportunity and didn't have a second thought, by far the best decision of my life. Turning down a 3 month $15,000 mountain biking contract in Mexico to go to uni was made in the moment, and has resulted in the most challenging year of my life, where i have grown so much, realised the effort i need to put into achieving my goal, and had life changing God encounters i would not have got if i went to Mexico. i guess when we think to much we focus our attention on our selves and not on God, blocking out what he is trying to say to us. Matthew 6 : 27 says
"Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?"

over thinking and worry is just stopping me from getting all i can out of life, opportunities, and the moment. I just need to stop over thinking, trust in God and live spontaneously. starting now. 

Life, it can change in a second.

Walking.

possibly moving out of home next year, I just cant stand the control my parents have over my life at the moment. 'you cant do this or you cant to that', 'you have to be home by this time', 'you cant go to summer camp'. i don't even know if i want to go to uni next year or if I'm doing it just cause it seems to be the only thing my parents will support me in, they will pay for what i do only if its uni. I know they love me and they want what is only the best for me, and i am grateful for every thing they do for me. But I'm 18, school's been over for over a year for me and I'm a uni student, i want to live my life and to live without been treated like a 15 year old. i cant even use my student loan without getting told off. its such i joke, i just want my space.

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Big.

My God, is big, so strong, so mighty. My Gods plan for me goes beyond my wildest dream. My God is good, so good to me. He's My God and he is my refuge. He's the rock on which i stand, He's my fortress. God he is my life. He Holds the oceans in his Hand. There's nothing my God cannot do.

Half Full.

Hung out with Caleb tonight after elevate for the first time in yonks, it reminded me how much of 'the man' he really is. It also reminded me why it is so much better to get advice from my leader rather than my friends, my friends always tell me what i want to hear, were as Caleb tells me what i need to hear. not saying that my friends give horrible advice, i do value it, particularly Luke Smiths, hes a pretty onto it guy.

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its funny how when you look at a situation from one perspective it looks bad, but when you change your perspective to one that is different it looks good. The situation is the same but the perspective from which you look at it changes it from a bad situation to a good situation...if you get what i mean haha, its like that good ole illustration of "is the cup half empty or half full?" it all depends on your perspective.

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also, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHlJODYBLKs